[Wally's eyes narrow at the 'coward' comment, though the assessment of taking potshots at Robin's feelings are spot on. He frowns at Robin across the table.]
But you don't. I mean, who'd have a crush on a coward? And what the hell is that supposed to mean anyway?
You told me not to tell anyone. So I didn't. I never have.
[ It's like clawing open an old scar. He'd thought it had healed, but maybe not. Maybe not addressing it at all isn't the same thing. ]
... dude, it was humiliating. Feeling like I was an embarrassment to you, or— or no, maybe just you reciprocating was an embarrassment. I'd never felt like we weren't on equal footing before that, but that— I don't— I felt like this scrawny, desperate, unlikeable kid in the face of everything you were to me, and... it's at least half my fault for being too pathetic to admit to myself that you were uncomfortable, that you'd never be comfortable, but—
[ He takes a deep breath, hands clenching tight on his knees. ]
I don't blame you for not feeling the same way I did. I'd never hold that against you. And I forgive you for everything that happened, but I don't know how to get past how crappy that made me feel. And it isn't fair to use it as a weapon when I'm trying my best to bury something I never wanted to be ashamed of in the first place.
You…thought I was embarrassed of you? [Wally’s heart sinks.
How is that what Robin thought? Yeah, he’d told Robin he didn’t want to tell anyone about it, but he’d thought- well, no, of course he didn’t make it clear why because he hadn’t wanted Robin to know. He’d hoped if it was buried and he just kept working on it himself, eventually either he or Robin would have a change of heart and things would work out best for everybody.
But it didn’t. And he’d been lying to himself the whole time until the dam broke and Robin saw him flirting with that girl in a desperate attempt to make things feel normal again, and that had- Shit. Of course Robin thinks he’s just trading Gogo for Artemis, of course he wouldn’t think any better of Wally. Wally hasn’t told him any different.
They’ve left this for too long. He left this for too long.]
Rob- That’s not- [Wally pauses a second to collect his thoughts, because they’re racing but they never come out right when just lets them fall out of his mouth as they occur to him and he remembers what Shade asked, is he worth it, because yeah. Yeah, of course he is.] I dunno if you know this now, but that’s not why I wanted to keep it secret. I just- [No more kid gloves. Stop treating Robin like he’s fragile just because you feel fragile, West.] I think I…knew. Deep down that it wasn’t gonna work out. And I didn’t- [He’s spending an awful lot of his time not looking Robin in the face, but at least he’s talking. It’s a start.
Damn it, he keeps screwing things up. Wally finds the chip bag Robin brought for him (you’re a fucking asshole, West) and crumples it in his hands, clenching them atop the table.] I didn’t want people to say stuff like ‘congratulations’ or ‘I knew it’ or stuff like that, to celebrate it when I knew it…wasn’t gonna last. I don’t know. I was hoping it would, seriously; I wouldn’t have tried if I didn’t at least wonder. But you asked me to flirt with you like how I flirt with girls and to go out on dates and I just- [He couldn’t. Wally’s nothing if not true to himself, even if what he is happens to be a selfish, shitty person at the moment.] I kind of realized it wasn’t…happening. It’s not ‘cause I was embarrassed- Dude I will tell everyone and anyone right now. Jesus, I didn’t know you thought I was ashamed or something- I mean I was, but not because we were going out, and not because of you. I was ashamed because I couldn’t tell you the truth.
[Wally goes a little red in the face, staring hard down at his Calculus textbook.] I’d never had anybody say that stuff you said about me before. I didn’t want to let you down. …but good job, I did it anyway, and even more spectacularly than if I hadn’t tried at all. Dude, I’m sorry.
Oh, [ he finally says, and feels ridiculous that that's all he can think to say at first. Sometimes you hear something and it feels like the world is tipping to the side, your whole entire perspective sort of rearranging itself to fit this new information. He thinks part of him knew that, but not... the whole of it. Not the entire picture. Now he feels awful for assuming the worst, for calling Wally a coward, for thinking badly of him over this. Another stupid mistake, because Dick couldn't keep his mouth shut and Wally was trying to protect him. ]
I'm sorry too, [ he says abruptly, his ears burning again as he reaches up to scrub at his stinging eyes with the end of his sweater sleeve. ] I never should've said anything in the first place. I didn't— I didn't want to change anything between us, you know? And it was stupid to think it wouldn't. I liked you because you were my friend, and I— if I hadn't tried to make you be anything else—
[ And that's the thing, isn't it? That's why he talks instead of listening, that's why he tries so hard to fix things that no one asked him to fix in the first place. ]
I'm sorry, dude. I'm so, so sorry. Sometimes it's like... it's like I see problems instead of people, and I think, you know, if I just work hard enough, if I find the right angle, if I'm— if I'm good enough—
[ He looks down at his hands, clenched into fists, white-knuckled. He couldn't make Wally love him back and he can't make Bruce into who he wants him to be and yeah, he blames himself for everything that goes wrong in anyone's life, but isn't it a little arrogant, too? The world doesn't revolve around his successes and failures, no matter how much more comforting that might be.
This, though... this really his his fault. ]
I'm sorry I made you feel like I was expecting something you couldn't give, and I'm sorry I ever made you feel like you had to lie to me. And I'm sorry that— dude, I don't think you're always messing up. You're not a screwup and you're not a bad guy and I'm sorry I get up on my stupid critical high horse because I think I can fix everything and make everyone else happy if I'm just right enough.
[Wally just barely lifts his head from where he'd buried it in his arms to snort out a laugh.] Dude, we're totally both giving each other the 'it's not you, it's me' talk right now.
[He lets himself smile over that for a little bit before sobering, finally staring up at Robin, eye contact and all.] Look- If you tell me you're over it, then I'll believe you. We're both trying on this honesty thing again and all. But I'm never not gonna think about it. If there's stuff we do that...I dunno, makes it harder, [the cuddling, the hanging all over each other, all of that] then maybe we should cool it for a while? Not because we're not as close, but because...I dunno. I dunno where you're at.
[ He doesn't — can't — say he's over it again, yet. Not when Wally's talking about honesty and giving him that look. But that, at least, is true. He tilts his head a little, scrutinizing Wally, trying to figure out if there's something he's not saying. If he's the one who's uncomfortable with it, or what. ]
What do you mean, you're never not going to think about it?
It's- [Wally glances up in time to see the look on Robin's face and grabs for his hand across the table, laces their fingers together and squeezes. Does it consciously, because that's gotta be what Robin's thinking about, he probably thinks Wally meant in that 'gonna analyze every interaction we have and wonder how gay it was' sort of douchebag way.] Not like that. I just mean, it's not something I'm gonna forget. And- it's hard liking someone who doesn't like you like that back dude, so... I don't want us to like, friend break up or anything like that. And I'm cool with how we hang out. You're cool with it too?
[ Dick's eyes go almost comically wide in his surprise. His heart pounds so hard it rattles his ribs and his ears go red (for what, the tenth time today?) and he squeezes Wally's hand back, because. Okay. Sure. ]
Yeah, [ he says, and nods firmly, because he is. ] I mean, I never— it's—
[ He blows out a breath. Get it together, Grayson, be cool. ]
Look, if you're okay with it, then yes. Yeah. I don't want to lie to you about it, because it shouldn't be something bad. It's just, dude, I don't know if it's the kind of thing that'll ever go away. And that... it's hard, sure, but just because something's hard doesn't mean it's not worth it. It's not like this is "good enough," you know? It's just... good. What we have is really, really good. I wouldn't trade it for anything.
[ He bites at the inside of his lip. Taps the side of Wally's hand with his thumb. A lifetime ago, he'd sat on Mom's lap in their trailer and listened to her tell him she'd married her best friend. He'd scrunched up his nose at the time. Now... well, long story short, he thinks it's okay if he doesn't want to get over it. Not yet. Maybe not ever. ]
It's... not the kind of feeling that needs to be reciprocated to matter, to be important. And maybe I figured out what was worth liking about you before anyone else did, but that's just because you were always the best version of Wally West around me. I'm... I'm glad other people can see it now too. So I'm not jealous, and I'm not pining.
... And I don't mind if you make dumb jokes about it, if you're seriously cool with it. You know, me thinking you're cute or whatever. It's not like— I mean, I'm not embarrassed of that.
[ There. That was probably about a year's worth of talking, all in one go. ]
[Wally's face scrunches up like he's stuck on a particularly frustrating problem. He rocks their hands together in thought, starting and stopping a sentence more than once because he just can't-
He doesn't get it.]
You really are okay with that. Really? [Liking someone but not acting on your feelings, not wanting something more, not looking for anything to come out of it- No that is just like, that's just BIZARRE. Wally can't even comprehend being okay with something like this. Sure yeah, he'd liked M'gann but by the time he got properly told to cease and desist he'd...mostly sort of already gotten over her. And he doesn't know how much Robin likes him but when they'd kissed that first time he'd been shaking. That has to be a lot, right?
Shit, he's turning red just thinking about it again. Put him in front of his own crushes a thousand times and he's fine but the second someone tells him they like him, he's a stupid mess.]
[ Oh. Wally's blushing, and there's that pang of guilt again, that he ever mistook that for reciprocation. If only he'd been quiet. If only he hadn't blown it all wide open. But it's here now, and so— ]
I kind of have to be, dude.
[ It's not that it isn't hard. It's always hard, wanting something you can never have. But hearing a no, knowing he'd just be throwing himself up against that wall no matter what he did... it almost helped. He's not good at taking no for an answer, but he can't change who someone is. He can't force someone to... ]
Look. When you really actually capital-L love someone, it's supposed to be selfless. That's— I mean—
[ He wants, he wants, he wants to hear it back. Just once, from someone. But if he feels it enough, if it's strong enough, maybe at least it can echo a little. He rests his other hand atop Wally's, patting it consolingly. ]
I'm not the kind of person who's gonna end up married with kids anyway, dude, you and I both know that. And if I don't expect anything and you can't give anything, then... can we just let it be what it is? Without you worrying about me and without us acting any different.
[Sorry Robin, Wally's head is going thump against the table as he turns bright, bright red from his neck to the roots of his hair. Robin can probably at least see his ears going practically purple.]
I'm...totally cool with that, [he mumbles into the table, agonized. Jesus. He's REALLY lucky Robin isn't in uniform while they're having this talk because having to look at one of his childhood heroes saying "capital L love" in reference to him would be way too much even for the usually shameless Wally West to handle.]
[ Jeez, he really didn't know. Foot in mouth much, Grayson?
Yeah, maybe if he was in uniform, this would be easier. Or maybe not. Maybe there's no way a something as small as a mask between him and the person he feels like that about could ever make it easy. Not with Wally, anyway, who could always see him underneath it.
The butterflies are back. He wishes, oh god he wishes— but he just laughs. ]
God, you dork. I thought it was so obvious. I might as well have had it written across my forehead, the way I felt.
[Wally springs back up, still am unattractive shade of puce but ready to be mock outraged so they can joke their way out of this.] Ohhh mygod, don't even! Do not. You said 'like' before not 'love' and ESPECIALLY not 'capital L love' okay?! Those are all super different and like- Okay and you're a disguise expert like literally bullet point three in the special skills section of your resume is "really good at fooling other people" so don't even start with me like "ohmigod Wally it was sooooooo obvious" when it totally was not!
It was Capital. O. Obvious, you oblivious nerd, and you'd have noticed if I was a girl.
[ And he's trying very, very hard not to laugh, but Wally's outraged ranting is too funny. His free hand goes up to his mouth to stifle a snicker, and the other one squeezes Wally's again, just to see if he goes any redder. ]
And you're the one who called us soulmates, and you said you'd marry me if you were into guys, so don't start with this "oh man, I had absolutely no idea" thing. [ Why aren't semi-platonic kisses a thing?, Dick wonders, not for the first time. He'd hop across the table and lay one on him if it wouldn't be weird. ] And dude, people are gonna think you're over here asking me to the dance at this rate.
I said we were ROBOT soulmates and I would marry you if I was into dudes, and maybe we should go to the dance! I dunno, I'll ask Gogo if she wants to go, but I don't think she'll want to. [Pause.] Not that you're my second choice or something, but if you don't have anyone to go with by then we should totally go together.
[See, that's the kind of stuff Wally was talking about when he said he couldn't just forget it, but. Y'know, Robin said it was fine. For Wally, that would mean he was looking for something more but for Robin it's not??? He guesses. Man, it's weird.
Either way, students still left in the cafeteria on the nearby tables are definitely giggling and whispering, not that Wally cares. He rolls his eyes and half-shoves Robin away, throwing his papers into his books and stuffing them into his bag.]
I don't need your fancy dance education! ...and I'm still gonna ask Gogo if she wants to go with me first dude, so. Might need a raincheck on that.
[ He claps Wally on the shoulder, and decides this would be a very bad time to point out that Wally's new girlfriend doesn't like him much at all. Double dates are probably out of the question here. If Dick was even... whatever. Not the point. He can be the bigger man here, can't he?
He gives a last look to his unfinished lunch, and sighs, and smiles as he gets up to clear the table. ]
I'm sure college girl will be thrilled and not look or feel at all out of place at a dance full of babies like us.
Yeahh, that's why I don't think she'll wanna go. I mean, I wasn't even going to go since I've got a couple big tests the Monday after but. [Shrugs.] Gotta get the full school experience, right? Maybe we can spike the punch. [Wally slings his backpack over his shoulder and grabs both their trays. A thank you for the chips. ...also he's totally eating what you didn't eat, SORRY, CAN'T STOMACH THROWING OUT FOOD.]
Well, we'll find a way to make it fun if you absolutely have to find a reason to go without your sugar mama. And I'll help you study.
[ He stands, hesitating briefly, his smile fading. ]
... and hey, dude, before I go back to making fun of you? Can we just— [ He blows out a sigh through his nose, rocking onto the balls of his feet. ] Let's stop going for the throat when we fight, okay?
[Wally's face burns with shame as he stacks the trays on the counter.]
Dude- Seriously, I'm sorry. I didn't- It- [he blows out his own breath, running a hand through his hair.] That was really low. I shouldn't have even thought to say that crap. I guess I'm...feeling kind of guilty.
[The guilt Wally's feeling isn't about the jerkitude (or not just about that) but he doesn't want to sour this peace offering by bringing it up.] I hear you. Though personally I wouldn't mind just relaxing, too. I feel like all we've been doing lately is trying harder.
[Switches shoulders with his backpack because this thing is heavy. The bell rings overhead and Wally hangs back as the cafeteria empties around them.] Hey, [he says suddenly when Robin makes to leave. He shifts his weight awkwardly.] You don't think...I mean. I'm not like...
D'you think if Artemis showed up right now she'd hate me?
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But you don't. I mean, who'd have a crush on a coward? And what the hell is that supposed to mean anyway?
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[ It's like clawing open an old scar. He'd thought it had healed, but maybe not. Maybe not addressing it at all isn't the same thing. ]
... dude, it was humiliating. Feeling like I was an embarrassment to you, or— or no, maybe just you reciprocating was an embarrassment. I'd never felt like we weren't on equal footing before that, but that— I don't— I felt like this scrawny, desperate, unlikeable kid in the face of everything you were to me, and... it's at least half my fault for being too pathetic to admit to myself that you were uncomfortable, that you'd never be comfortable, but—
[ He takes a deep breath, hands clenching tight on his knees. ]
I don't blame you for not feeling the same way I did. I'd never hold that against you. And I forgive you for everything that happened, but I don't know how to get past how crappy that made me feel. And it isn't fair to use it as a weapon when I'm trying my best to bury something I never wanted to be ashamed of in the first place.
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How is that what Robin thought? Yeah, he’d told Robin he didn’t want to tell anyone about it, but he’d thought- well, no, of course he didn’t make it clear why because he hadn’t wanted Robin to know. He’d hoped if it was buried and he just kept working on it himself, eventually either he or Robin would have a change of heart and things would work out best for everybody.
But it didn’t. And he’d been lying to himself the whole time until the dam broke and Robin saw him flirting with that girl in a desperate attempt to make things feel normal again, and that had- Shit. Of course Robin thinks he’s just trading Gogo for Artemis, of course he wouldn’t think any better of Wally. Wally hasn’t told him any different.
They’ve left this for too long. He left this for too long.]
Rob- That’s not- [Wally pauses a second to collect his thoughts, because they’re racing but they never come out right when just lets them fall out of his mouth as they occur to him and he remembers what Shade asked, is he worth it, because yeah. Yeah, of course he is.] I dunno if you know this now, but that’s not why I wanted to keep it secret. I just- [No more kid gloves. Stop treating Robin like he’s fragile just because you feel fragile, West.] I think I…knew. Deep down that it wasn’t gonna work out. And I didn’t- [He’s spending an awful lot of his time not looking Robin in the face, but at least he’s talking. It’s a start.
Damn it, he keeps screwing things up. Wally finds the chip bag Robin brought for him (you’re a fucking asshole, West) and crumples it in his hands, clenching them atop the table.] I didn’t want people to say stuff like ‘congratulations’ or ‘I knew it’ or stuff like that, to celebrate it when I knew it…wasn’t gonna last. I don’t know. I was hoping it would, seriously; I wouldn’t have tried if I didn’t at least wonder. But you asked me to flirt with you like how I flirt with girls and to go out on dates and I just- [He couldn’t. Wally’s nothing if not true to himself, even if what he is happens to be a selfish, shitty person at the moment.] I kind of realized it wasn’t…happening. It’s not ‘cause I was embarrassed- Dude I will tell everyone and anyone right now. Jesus, I didn’t know you thought I was ashamed or something- I mean I was, but not because we were going out, and not because of you. I was ashamed because I couldn’t tell you the truth.
[Wally goes a little red in the face, staring hard down at his Calculus textbook.] I’d never had anybody say that stuff you said about me before. I didn’t want to let you down. …but good job, I did it anyway, and even more spectacularly than if I hadn’t tried at all. Dude, I’m sorry.
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I'm sorry too, [ he says abruptly, his ears burning again as he reaches up to scrub at his stinging eyes with the end of his sweater sleeve. ] I never should've said anything in the first place. I didn't— I didn't want to change anything between us, you know? And it was stupid to think it wouldn't. I liked you because you were my friend, and I— if I hadn't tried to make you be anything else—
[ And that's the thing, isn't it? That's why he talks instead of listening, that's why he tries so hard to fix things that no one asked him to fix in the first place. ]
I'm sorry, dude. I'm so, so sorry. Sometimes it's like... it's like I see problems instead of people, and I think, you know, if I just work hard enough, if I find the right angle, if I'm— if I'm good enough—
[ He looks down at his hands, clenched into fists, white-knuckled. He couldn't make Wally love him back and he can't make Bruce into who he wants him to be and yeah, he blames himself for everything that goes wrong in anyone's life, but isn't it a little arrogant, too? The world doesn't revolve around his successes and failures, no matter how much more comforting that might be.
This, though... this really his his fault. ]
I'm sorry I made you feel like I was expecting something you couldn't give, and I'm sorry I ever made you feel like you had to lie to me. And I'm sorry that— dude, I don't think you're always messing up. You're not a screwup and you're not a bad guy and I'm sorry I get up on my stupid critical high horse because I think I can fix everything and make everyone else happy if I'm just right enough.
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[He lets himself smile over that for a little bit before sobering, finally staring up at Robin, eye contact and all.] Look- If you tell me you're over it, then I'll believe you. We're both trying on this honesty thing again and all. But I'm never not gonna think about it. If there's stuff we do that...I dunno, makes it harder, [the cuddling, the hanging all over each other, all of that] then maybe we should cool it for a while? Not because we're not as close, but because...I dunno. I dunno where you're at.
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[ He doesn't — can't — say he's over it again, yet. Not when Wally's talking about honesty and giving him that look. But that, at least, is true. He tilts his head a little, scrutinizing Wally, trying to figure out if there's something he's not saying. If he's the one who's uncomfortable with it, or what. ]
What do you mean, you're never not going to think about it?
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Yeah, [ he says, and nods firmly, because he is. ] I mean, I never— it's—
[ He blows out a breath. Get it together, Grayson, be cool. ]
Look, if you're okay with it, then yes. Yeah. I don't want to lie to you about it, because it shouldn't be something bad. It's just, dude, I don't know if it's the kind of thing that'll ever go away. And that... it's hard, sure, but just because something's hard doesn't mean it's not worth it. It's not like this is "good enough," you know? It's just... good. What we have is really, really good. I wouldn't trade it for anything.
[ He bites at the inside of his lip. Taps the side of Wally's hand with his thumb. A lifetime ago, he'd sat on Mom's lap in their trailer and listened to her tell him she'd married her best friend. He'd scrunched up his nose at the time. Now... well, long story short, he thinks it's okay if he doesn't want to get over it. Not yet. Maybe not ever. ]
It's... not the kind of feeling that needs to be reciprocated to matter, to be important. And maybe I figured out what was worth liking about you before anyone else did, but that's just because you were always the best version of Wally West around me. I'm... I'm glad other people can see it now too. So I'm not jealous, and I'm not pining.
... And I don't mind if you make dumb jokes about it, if you're seriously cool with it. You know, me thinking you're cute or whatever. It's not like— I mean, I'm not embarrassed of that.
[ There. That was probably about a year's worth of talking, all in one go. ]
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He doesn't get it.]
You really are okay with that. Really? [Liking someone but not acting on your feelings, not wanting something more, not looking for anything to come out of it- No that is just like, that's just BIZARRE. Wally can't even comprehend being okay with something like this. Sure yeah, he'd liked M'gann but by the time he got properly told to cease and desist he'd...mostly sort of already gotten over her. And he doesn't know how much Robin likes him but when they'd kissed that first time he'd been shaking. That has to be a lot, right?
Shit, he's turning red just thinking about it again. Put him in front of his own crushes a thousand times and he's fine but the second someone tells him they like him, he's a stupid mess.]
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I kind of have to be, dude.
[ It's not that it isn't hard. It's always hard, wanting something you can never have. But hearing a no, knowing he'd just be throwing himself up against that wall no matter what he did... it almost helped. He's not good at taking no for an answer, but he can't change who someone is. He can't force someone to... ]
Look. When you really actually capital-L love someone, it's supposed to be selfless. That's— I mean—
[ He wants, he wants, he wants to hear it back. Just once, from someone. But if he feels it enough, if it's strong enough, maybe at least it can echo a little. He rests his other hand atop Wally's, patting it consolingly. ]
I'm not the kind of person who's gonna end up married with kids anyway, dude, you and I both know that. And if I don't expect anything and you can't give anything, then... can we just let it be what it is? Without you worrying about me and without us acting any different.
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I'm...totally cool with that, [he mumbles into the table, agonized. Jesus. He's REALLY lucky Robin isn't in uniform while they're having this talk because having to look at one of his childhood heroes saying "capital L love" in reference to him would be way too much even for the usually shameless Wally West to handle.]
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[ Jeez, he really didn't know. Foot in mouth much, Grayson?
Yeah, maybe if he was in uniform, this would be easier. Or maybe not. Maybe there's no way a something as small as a mask between him and the person he feels like that about could ever make it easy. Not with Wally, anyway, who could always see him underneath it.
The butterflies are back. He wishes, oh god he wishes— but he just laughs. ]
God, you dork. I thought it was so obvious. I might as well have had it written across my forehead, the way I felt.
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[ And he's trying very, very hard not to laugh, but Wally's outraged ranting is too funny. His free hand goes up to his mouth to stifle a snicker, and the other one squeezes Wally's again, just to see if he goes any redder. ]
And you're the one who called us soulmates, and you said you'd marry me if you were into guys, so don't start with this "oh man, I had absolutely no idea" thing. [ Why aren't semi-platonic kisses a thing?, Dick wonders, not for the first time. He'd hop across the table and lay one on him if it wouldn't be weird. ] And dude, people are gonna think you're over here asking me to the dance at this rate.
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. . . okay, but listen, you can't wear a plaid suit unless I can wear a baby blue one like it's 1972. And slow dancing isn't real dancing.
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Wally, you're kind of a loser.
But just for that, he slides his chair around to the other side of the table, and gives his BFF a big cheesy kiss on the cheek. ]
Gonna teach you to foxtrot, stud.
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Either way, students still left in the cafeteria on the nearby tables are definitely giggling and whispering, not that Wally cares. He rolls his eyes and half-shoves Robin away, throwing his papers into his books and stuffing them into his bag.]
I don't need your fancy dance education! ...and I'm still gonna ask Gogo if she wants to go with me first dude, so. Might need a raincheck on that.
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[ He claps Wally on the shoulder, and decides this would be a very bad time to point out that Wally's new girlfriend doesn't like him much at all. Double dates are probably out of the question here. If Dick was even... whatever. Not the point. He can be the bigger man here, can't he?
He gives a last look to his unfinished lunch, and sighs, and smiles as he gets up to clear the table. ]
I'm sure college girl will be thrilled and not look or feel at all out of place at a dance full of babies like us.
[ That was fair game, though. ]
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[ He stands, hesitating briefly, his smile fading. ]
... and hey, dude, before I go back to making fun of you? Can we just— [ He blows out a sigh through his nose, rocking onto the balls of his feet. ] Let's stop going for the throat when we fight, okay?
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Dude- Seriously, I'm sorry. I didn't- It- [he blows out his own breath, running a hand through his hair.] That was really low. I shouldn't have even thought to say that crap. I guess I'm...feeling kind of guilty.
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[ He rests a hand lightly in between Wally's shoulders, at the center of his back. ]
I just want to try harder.
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[Switches shoulders with his backpack because this thing is heavy. The bell rings overhead and Wally hangs back as the cafeteria empties around them.] Hey, [he says suddenly when Robin makes to leave. He shifts his weight awkwardly.] You don't think...I mean. I'm not like...
D'you think if Artemis showed up right now she'd hate me?
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