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[chiroptophobic]

I pushed you away, when I should have been asking for your help. I asked you to trust me after betraying it. I let you down.
Sound about right?

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[performance]

It's a pretty good start.

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[chiroptophobic]

I don't give you even half of the respect you deserve. You've been doing this longer than I have. You fight like something I've never seen.
I was selfish, and inconsiderate. I thought that Alfred leaving just hurt me, and I buried myself in that pain, because without him I don't know what family is any more. He was all I had in the world, Dick, that wasn't Batman.
So I focused on Crane. I let myself get tangled up in his schemes. I destroyed our relationship before I could ever really figure out what it was, and I did it not to protect you, but because I've trapped myself into thinking that I can only believe in myself. That I'm the only one who can make a difference.

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[chiroptophobic]

I don't know how to be anything else.

[performance]

It was about more than just me, though I'd be lying if I said it didn't hurt.

You say you don't know how to be anything else.
Well, I don't know how to change someone.

[chiroptophobic]

Right now, this apology is just about you. I could go into what I did wrong, how I was outmaneuvered, but I'm not exactly over the moon about Crane kicking my ass, if you must know.

[ Well, that was too glib, maybe. ]

I don't need you to change me, Dick. This is something I have to change myself, before it either kills me or the people around me.

[performance]

That's just the thing. People WANT to be around you.
You're good. You're probably the best. But you're just one person.

I realize it's something you have to do yourself.
I just... needed to say that for me, I guess.

[chiroptophobic]

I'm contradicting myself, aren't I? Telling you I need to have more faith in you, but that I need to be alone to fix myself. It seems like the answer but we really can't have it both ways.
I'd like to go back to basics, if you'd have me. I know it means you'd have to take some time off from your things, but I feel like I owe it to you.

[performance]

What do you mean by basics, exactly?

[chiroptophobic]

The basics where we share our own experience, our knowledge, with each other. Maybe do some trust exercises, because we're sorely lacking.

[performance]

... yeah. All right. I'd be willing to give it another try.