I know how this looks. But it's not that I don't trust you or Bruce. I-I do, but that's why—
[ Because this Bruce never chose him, and Alfred knows an older, smarter, more together him, and if he thinks about it too hard he feels powerless, all wrong in his own skin, and he can't stand it. He's tired of being the wrong version of himself for people, and all he can do is the only thing he's ever done: throw himself right into becoming someone better.
So this? It might have been badly planned, it might have been one of the worst ideas he's ever had, but he needs to prove his own worth (to them? to himself?) — that he's not a burden, that he can be just as good as whoever they expect him to be. ]
I know I did it all wrong. But I thought if I could do it myself, then maybe it would prove I'm— not a kid? That you two don't need to worry about me. That I can handle this.
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[ Because this Bruce never chose him, and Alfred knows an older, smarter, more together him, and if he thinks about it too hard he feels powerless, all wrong in his own skin, and he can't stand it. He's tired of being the wrong version of himself for people, and all he can do is the only thing he's ever done: throw himself right into becoming someone better.
So this? It might have been badly planned, it might have been one of the worst ideas he's ever had, but he needs to prove his own worth (to them? to himself?) — that he's not a burden, that he can be just as good as whoever they expect him to be. ]
I know I did it all wrong. But I thought if I could do it myself, then maybe it would prove I'm— not a kid? That you two don't need to worry about me. That I can handle this.
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Perhaps this is a conversation best continued elsewhere. I'll drop by shortly.
((Continued here))